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…showed last 75 words of 698 total…pursue his earthly desires. The boy has prayers and praises not for God but for someone he does not know. He builds up what he thinks will be an exotic world, what he imagines will be a better world, louder and more entertaining than his current reality. What he means when he says his eyes burned with anguish and anger is that his perception of the real world did not match up to his construction.